You know what ,life here (wherever i am ) is not half as bad as i make out to be, in fact it could very well have been worse, but for me to justify my abominable nature ,life here (wherever i am)has to represented in the poorest of light...i would like to believe that everyone hates me here (when actually they dissmiss me as callow and superficial or worse dont even know i exist) and i am a lone ranger fighting an increasingly difficult battle against those who oppose everything i stand for( which is basically nothing)...arent i pathetically, self depracatingly imaginative ???(there i go again eulogising myself).