The drip, drip of the long-haul…
Weekends are awful…a prelude to future… though I would lead myself and people around me to believe that there is dignity in loneliness, I do realise that there is nothing noble in being so chronically untouched that a mere whiff of a man standing next to you sends shivers of longing sraight down to your groin…to catch a flash of a young, lean man in the rear view mirror of an autorickshaw and wonder what his mouth tastes like… It’s not just lust, mind you, but a longing for human intimacy… to be held, to be wanted…
When I was younger I had such a vision of a content life… of warm libraries and bare, stark bedrooms… I also, in moments of weaknesses, would dream of finding someone… but one learns one’s limitations... Slowly and kindly it dawns upon you, that at the end you are all alone…
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Posted by serendipiduous at 12:33 PM
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me also.
except library and bedroom in one big room and walls should be orange.
..you guys are way too young to be "accepting" this. Make your happiness...go find it...heck, even lust and sex alone without the "connection of wanting and love with a human being" is "something" and therefore of value. More than "nothing" don't you think? What's with all this self-denial?
I don't know what to say. Don't be lonely, give up your inhibitions...
It's the most debilitating, yet strangely satisfying feeling of them all, isn't it - the acknowledgement that ultimately, we are alone
company of one's own self can be quite fulfilling..u just have to find your inner bliss.
although we do know some of us find solace in the very 'thought' of being alone without actually 'being' alone.
but then again, as they say being alone isnt exactly the same as being lonely now is it?
especially when we don't enjoy other people's company
errrm... we all have our own way of addressing loneliness...only the pathetic like me make such a show of it...
:P
gawd sucha dramebaaz i am...
i second that!
muaah
oye oye
this is scary stuff :O
and human intimacy cannot be realised unless you know how somebody's mouth tastes like naki??? tale toh i am a stranger stranded in a barren island...
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